Bloggie, its beeen aeons since my last post.. Been really caught up with school and am so sorry for not updating.. Anywayss lotsa stuff have happened.. BESTIE is out of town, really going nuts without her... Bt am jus gladdd she is happyyy and doing great ((: What else ? COMMON TESTS are like in a week's time and i've not gotten down to serious revision !! GOODNESS ! PRAVEEENNN !!! U GOTTA SERIOUSSSSLYYY GET STARTEDD BIG TIMEEE !!
Anyways lately.. alot of things have been happeninggg.. I dunno whats going on.. Is it cause of the things i see around me or is it simply me..
I hate it, yet i love it..
I've been running away from this for many years now...
Waiting..
Sometimes i even wondered if there was ever a right time..
Or I just assumed that it wasnt meant for me, and I was just mean to be on my own...
I was so strong and settled with that..
I was cool being alone..
Bt it starts hurt..
MORE than it usually does..
But lately, the emotions are just running wild... Has this heart healed ? Or is it just another illusion to fill the many broken graps of this terribly wounded heart ?
I really dont knw..
Torn inbetween ..
Thou feels so perfect when around and when I speak and share and connect and everything is practically everything I am..
Thou other which is simply everythingg I crave and feel and want in which. Everything I imagined.. It was there from day 1.. Its crazy..
Do I feel such due to my surroundings ?
It is said that love can heal anything...
Even after it causes so much of pain and it is avoided to the maximum..
Ironically, it is that very same love that heals that pain caused by love itself..
What is this insanity ?
The heart is looking at everything in such a different way now..
It needs, it craves, it wants..
Do fairytales exist ?
Do happily ever afters exist ?
If not anyone, I should knw this better..
Bt why the persistant existance of that hope that there is ?
All seems so beautiful at first..
So perfect..
Then it starts to poison U..
I dont want to be poisoned..
I am confused.
Despite it all..
It seems so right..
So perfect..
I want my fairytale..
bt before that..
REALITY CHECK !!
COMMON TESTSSSSSSSSSSSS !!! :D
Signing off,
PKD
Bloggie, its beeen aeons since my last post.. Been really caught up with school and am so sorry for not updating.. Anywayss lotsa stuff have happened.. BESTIE is out of town, really going nuts without her... Bt am jus gladdd she is happyyy and doing great ((: What else ? COMMON TESTS are like in a week's time and i've not gotten down to serious revision !! GOODNESS ! PRAVEEENNN !!! U GOTTA SERIOUSSSSLYYY GET STARTEDD BIG TIMEEE !!
